Why is it so easy to feel so alone in a crowd full of people? Why does no one notice the small tear falling down my cheek screaming to be heard? Is it really that hard to notice that maybe... maybe I'm not okay? It's easy to mask my voice from the loneliness I feel, but it doesn't stop my aching heart. Sometimes I just want to break down in front of everyone....but I never do. Perhaps it's my pride, perhaps it's my dignity, but sometimes... I just want someone to hear my cry of pain.
Ninth graders nicknamed me 'Smiley' last year. I don't think that name suits me much any more. I do smile often, but half the time their fake smiles to mask the hurt. Perhaps I'm overreacting, perhaps I'm not, but it seems like everyone else has it all put together and I'm the only one falling apart at the strings. I know that's not true, and I know so many people go through the same thing...
But it feels like I'm all alone.
So when I was in a car full of people...
No one noticed a couple tears slip down my face.
And I felt so alone.