Edge of InsanityTip me to the edge of insanity And watch my heart Crumble And fall Watch as the mask I so carefully placed Shatter to a million pieces Under your beautiful eyes Which caused all the pain Look into my eyes That hide pain in them From the outside world And yet not a soul knows ...not even I know, at timesWatch as I slowly go numb Shoving back memories into My bleeding heart Wishing back for the days That I was happy and oblivious To hurt... Can't you see how much I hurt? Perhaps my mask hides me A bit too well...
Broken WingsWrapping Binding Broken wings Learning how to fly again without strings attached to this earthly world below and take a breath and let him goDrifting apart into another world where I learn how to heal and to love once more.
Hidden SorrowHidden in the nightIs a girl with broken heartWith tears streaming down her faceAnd not making a soundHer breath is raggedAnd her thoughts are numbAs she tries to drive the insanityOut of her headOne by one her tear drops fallSoftly on her pillowAnd the girl hopes that when dreamsSweep her awayThat they will save her from this sorrow
The Song of a LullabyThe song of a lullaby Was carved in my headMemory by memory Each note was thread A smile, a grin Those notes went high Sobbing, crying Those notes went low Benath the depths of the earth Each precious noteWas sung With a purpose, a reason And each note rung Through the gallant halls Of an auditorium And when the lullaby Slowly drifted into the night Everyone applauded And the lullaby was done.
Help MeHelp me. Please. I'm trying to escape from this depression creeping up on me, but it's catching up. I don't want to be depressed. I don't want to have tears flood my eyes every night.I don't want to hide behind this crumbling mask of emotion,But no one bothers to ask if I'm truly alright. Everyone assumes I'm as happy as can bewithout a single care in the world.No one really sees the inside where I'm hurting and confused... But no one bothers to rip off the cover of my story and see me for who I really am.
NeverYou never told me you were sorryYet I never told you I wasn't fine.You never bothered to look back Yet I look back every day. You never looked past the mask Yet I try to keep my mask from crumbling. You never thought it hurt this much Yet it took me a while to heal from the wounds.You never expected your rejection would affect me like this... Yet I never expected it either. You never realized how much you meant to meYet now I finally realize it's time to move on. You never guessed how much a struggle it was for me to let you goYet at the final step of letting go, I finally realized how much I cared for youAnd that's what hurt the most.
Can't You?Can't you see how every smile Hides my nervously Beating heart? Can't you see how my eyes Cloud with a depressing gaze Every day? Can't you tell each thing I say Is trying to ignore the fact That you don't like me? Can't you see everything I doIs trying to push through the thoughts That cause me to go insane? Can't you see me For me?
Dear MeDear me, Have you seen yourself lately? Have you seen how much you changed over a single course of a summer? You used to be happy... You were so naive, so innocent to what the world had to offer.But one step too far led to this destruction. You write depressing poetry almost every day. A year ago, you wouldn't even dream this would become your fate. You hide underneath a crumbling mask, trying to shove emotions you didn't know existed until now back into your mind for none to see. Everyone thinks you're happy. Minus the few you actually let under the mask and pour out your emotion for them to see. As time goes on, your broken heart is beginning to heal, but... Time ticks by so slowly... So please, tell me...What happened to you? Love, Me P.S. Please get better soon...
I'm Scared...I'm scared.... I'm scared to death at the fact that I'm letting my emotions begin to show I'm falling for another and I'm falling so fast I'm forgetting my past I'm watching it happen all over again I'm falling for someone elseI'm scared of falling I'm scared Of my mostly healed heart being broken again...
HiddenHidden tears Behind closed doors In hidden thoughts And closed secrets But there's a secret key In a secret place In a secret spot In the secret vulnerable part in my heart That unlocks the hidden tears Behind the closed doors In hidden thoughts And closed secrets That lets you see the true me...
Remember to BreatheRemember to breathe. Ignore that extremely small space Between you and him That's causing you to blush like mad. Try not to stare too deeply into his Beautiful eyes That seem to call into your internal soul. Try not to smile too widley. Remember to actually pay attention to what he's saying rather than zoning out on him. Because you know that none of this Is running through his head And he's actually just making conversation with you As a friend. And that's what kills you inside As you stare into his Beautiful eyes.
Shattered RealityI'm on the verge of lashing out into darknessWith weighted tears on my cheeksWondering how I was in the dark so longWithout seeing how blindly I was walkingIt should've been obvious The way he felt about me But no, I stumbled through my Deluded daydream Without a second thought But now the mist has cleared And tears have began to fall As I realize the beautiful dream Was just a shattered mirror That I'm forced to look into every day.
Listen to My SilenceListen. Listen to the quiet sobs in the night And the whispers echoing in my ear. Listen to the silent agony I suffer through daily. Someone, please listen. Listen to my troubled heart That beats loudly in the stilled silence. Listen to the choked back words I yearn to say to you But never do. Listen to my dulled pleas Screaming in my head Trying to convince myself I'm alright. So please... Just listen.
Loves Me, Loves Me NotEveryday I play A cruel and vicious gameOf does he love me? Does he not?That had endless and various plots From the tormentors beyond my gates To the small smiles that make me think The thoughts A jumbled sea A mess But no one could ever guess That every day I play A vicious game if Does he love me?Or does he not?
FallenI fell. My heart fell out of heavenPlummeting to the ground At the speed of sound And shattered in A thousand pieces. But... Are you there?Are you the one To pick up the pieces And to hold me close Whispering to me That everything will be alright? Or will it hurt? Will the stitches out of my Recently healed heart Come undone As I stare into your hazel eyes And see the echo of slate blue? Will you catch me?Or will I fall once more?
NumbMy thoughts of you have grown numb, With a cold whisper fingering My shivering heart Without care. My perspective of you has changed, Seeing finally who youReally are inside For once. My feelings for you have morphed To a numb understanding that You will always Be only My friend. My fantasies and visions of youHave disappeared entirelyLeaving only a Cold whisper.... ...causing the scar over my heart to go numb.
BarrierA barrier has formed between us,One that wasn't there before.Full of hidden secrets And half truths That I never hid from you before. Why now do I choose to put them up? Why now do I hide my emotions? Perhaps it's because you Have lost some of my trust Because of before. You never realize that I weep Within the dead of night.Heck, you don't even ask me how I feel Or ask if I feel alright. So I hide within this barrier, Benath the mask of shadows, And pray that someday you'll understand How much you've caused me sorrow.
BrokenBroken...Like a bird without wings Plummeting to the ground Without a sense of direction Or what's happening. Hurt... Like a child with a shard of glass Stuck in their foot As they cry out in pain With echoes of despair. Numb... Like a snowflake on a frosted paneSlowly breaking down For all to see. ...everything's broken.
Tick tickHe could hardly breatheBut his heart was still beating A broken rhythm A Phsycotic tempo Beat Beat Beat Beat....He didn't know the timeBut he still heard the seconds go by Swirling around him Something was saying His time was over Tick Tick Tick Tick...He didn't have wingsBut he was flying away I couldn't catch him The wind carried him away From me His hands Were cold and bloody Drip Drip Drip Drip.....And he bled Dripping in tempo with the clock It struck twelve Like knifes and swords And he bled Away Tick Drip Tick Drip Tick.... Drip.... Tick... Tick.... Tick.....
TearsHealing waters pouring forthWhy won't they come?Symbols of released sorrow and griefWhy won't they come?Effects of pride and joyWhy won't they come?Signals for others to sympathizeWhy can't I start?Easing the pain of tragedyWhy can't I start?Works of powerful emotionsWhy can't I start?Pouring from cracks in the armorShould I never start?Signs of weakness and injuryShould I never start?Blood of torn feelingsShould I never start?Necessities of emotional lifeI don't have a choiceBane of the mind's strength and stabilityI don't have a choiceUnable to even choose whether or notI don't have choiceThey don't come when I callAnd I push back when they threaten.
Anything.We waited in silence,For a sound.Something..Anything really.But nothing ever happened,And no one ever came.We waited for him.But he never came.A long plane ride in bitter silence,Left alone with a crushing reality.He was never coming home.And we realize that no amount of wishin will bring him back to us.But still we wait.Wondering.Wondering if he watches us or turns away in shame?Wondering if he's proud of who we became?Wondering if he will visit our dreams anymore?We wonder..And we wait in silence.For a sound.Something..Anything.
SeashineSacred skinwhere heavens and oceancollide,an imprint on salted lungsan echoof aching, ofa moonlit yearning upon therolling tide.
Twisted DeathTwisted DeathHiding from light exists twisted death, it slithers and screeches for one measly breath.Around the edges it bleeds and lies, gushing red from under its eyes.How shriveled and misunderstood this being is, yes, so please invite yourself in, and become its new guest.
Whats the point on Living?I'm lost in this world alonewith no hope to go onwith only the tearscrashing all around meThere is nothing that can be donenothing that is risk anythingI can't help itbut to make sure that I feel this painA feeling that I always wanteda feeling that is like a drug to meto slit my wrists openand to watch the blood fall to the groundThere is no hope left to my lifethere is no reason for me to be hereI'm stuck in this depressionthat I can't seem to control anymoreI just want to feel the pain on my armsto watch the blood flow from my armsto feel this pain deep insideto end my life for good....There is no hope in this worldNothing but pain and tortureWhat is the real point on Living?when most of the time you feel dead....
PerfectionI can't keep up with perfectionI want to jump and close my eyesBut I'm chained by my obsessionI know without it I could flyIf this is how it feels to be afraidIf this is what I'm meant to beLetting all time slip awayWhile trying to be what I should beI won't become the pure perfectionI'm getting caught out in the rainOnly worsened by reflectionsOf a lost life and its remains
AddictedI feel it hook and snag into me,Seducing or beating me into submission.A delicious poison.A thorny rose.I feel the tide of it rise up,Slowly growing and gathering strength.A burning cloud.A choking noose.I feel it carry me into the depths,Sweeping my resistance away.A whipping gale.A crashing wave.I feel my eyes open once it's done,Knowing that it'll happen again soon.A chosen dependency.A hurtful addiction.
LonelyI'm so lonelyEven with friends I'm so lonelyWill I ever find the one person that will try their best?To make me happy beyond all reason?To make me feel special?To make me feel like the only person that matters?Will I ever find the one just for me?I'm so lonelyEven with friends.Someday I'll find my one just for me…That will make me feel happy beyond all reasonThe one that will make me feel specialThe one that will make me feel like the only person that matters…But until I will remain lonely...
HalfHalf a lie Half a mask Half the truth From a haunting past Half a grin Half a wave Half paying attention As the world spins by Half awakeHalf asleep Half a try for conciousness I keep Halfway here Halfway gone Halfway sane When the day is done.